enes. 17, turkish. most of my time goes to a screen — not because i have to, just because that's where i've always ended up. even as a kid, before i actually had things to do there.

i'm an introvert for real, not as a personality trait i put in bios. i just genuinely feel better alone. silence is fine. i can sit with my own thoughts for hours and not feel like something's missing.

i take a while to open up and most people leave before that happens. used to get to me more than it does now. i've kind of just accepted i'm not going to click with everyone and that's okay.

my family means everything to me. past that, maybe 3 or 4 people irl i actually trust and 2 or 3 online people. i don't want more than that.

i notice when something's off really fast. a shorter reply, a weird vibe, just feeling slightly left out — and something in me already starts pulling back. i don't do it on purpose, it just happens before i even think about it.

being alone is how i recover. being around the right people is the only time i can just be myself without worrying about how i act.